Archive for September, 2003

Lulu at the Opera House

Posted in Writing, Cancer Journal on September 18th, 2003

Last night dined at Guillaume at the Opera House and then saw my fourth Lulu- the opera by Berg not the loud Scottish one. It was fantastic. The star performer and the conductor were gorgeous women with full figures and both wearing bright red silky dresses. A huge gleaming panel swung down from the ceiling and reflected the people on stage and, in between scenes, the orchestra. A stunning performance that took me out of the present momentarily.

Caught the last ferry back at midnight across a calm harbour on a mild night. We seem to have moved suddenly from a windy spring with temperatures around 18-22 to instant Summer. This weekend we are to expect 27 and the mid 30s next week.

Spoke by phone to Emma last night. She is back from Italy and wondering what next. Her good friends painted the main room upstairs and now she is now buying the blinds and enjoying her bright and shiny new space. She sounded positive in the face of chemo number 4 coming up on the 21st September.

Carte blanche

Posted in Writing, Cancer Journal on September 16th, 2003

Had text exchange with Emma tonight. She is about to go back to New Cross after a nice trip to Turin and is getting anxious. I think that is what is happening. There are plenty of uncertainties and they are starting to surface again after a brief respite. She is worried about what to do with her time having been given extended sick leave. She calls it a ‘carte blanche’-I think she means her employers are being reasonable but finds it hard to believe.

Carte blanche

Posted in Writing, Cancer Journal on September 16th, 2003

Had text exchange with Emma tonight. She is about to go back to New Cross after a nice trip to Turin and is getting anxious. I think that is what is happening. There are plenty of uncertainties and they are starting to surface again after a brief respite. She is worried about what to do with her time having been given extended sick leave. She calls it a ‘carte blanche’-I think she means her employers are being reasonable but finds it hard to believe.

Distance

Posted in Writing, Cancer Journal, September 2003 on September 1st, 2003

Finding life with cancer really hard especially at this distance. The text message has its virtues as does the telephone but it is not enough. I have had a delayed reaction to the visit to the doctors on Thursday. The full impact of it hit me- again!! Just the same as after the first news-after the operation.

I am back in the sun and looking over the quiet of Shell Cove while trying to stay awake until a decent time to go to bed. How time drags when you want to go to sleep but cannot.

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No predictions

Posted in Writing, Cancer Journal, September 2003 on September 1st, 2003

Just spoke to Emma after chemo 3 - she is getting more help and is asking for it in the right directions. She needs to talk to her oncologist and get him to communicate better. He would not make predictions and felt the individual case would buck the statistics. If they can get on one another’s wave-length that will be a bonus but he will not offer her everything she needs. Anyway she sounds more perked up than on the weekend and will have a blood transfusion on Wednesday to add to the steroid effect!

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